i host 4.5 (3.5) blogs.

this one, the main blog, chry1.com, is completely personal and bilingual, and i’m aiming to use this to complete my photoblog project.
the .5 is the HKfeminism co-op.
there’s a new one cheryl.posterous.com, which i am gonna babble something totally different only in English.
AnD is a sync to cheryl.posterous.com.
the last one, hush hush, is completely PRIVATE and VULGAR muahaha.

so, feel free to stalk on!

i have a list of links in the about section; it’s not hard to find me elsewhere in the virtualand ;)

i can’t do this. i have to know where i come from.
you know who reads my blog most often?
ME

I should’ve saved this random babbling for my private blog. And yes, I do have one, w/o capitalization. I hate big letters; I hate the big letter I. Whatever. Why am I here again?

Instead of a reminisce to my current life; I wanted to spit about my personal hygiene.

I guess I am just slightly better than a bum, since I do wash myself, and just managed to bring down the bush (!). My hair is still damp and I didn’t even bother to comb my hair; just forget about drying it.

Why PWNING again? I don’t know. I am such a coward. I shy away often. I have to let go of things. And this is it. I know it’s very random but like it’s 2am now and I still have to work on the price list — bear with me for god sake my brain wouldn’t be functioning properly. And of course I hope that it’s gonna pay off one day; I been working my ass off really. Say when? 6 months? Or even more? So many things to catch as we’re slowly crawling towards the end of the year. Oh gosh.

But I’m excited. Really. Those of you who don’t read Chinese, time to comment! Yo!

這個queen — 不是drag queen, drama queen那些帶貶義的label。是次我想要重申：我是dancing queen。

請配以美妙歌聲去幻想一下在下在跳舞。

何解又自吹自擂?

若果閣下昨晚都在Halo，那你有可能碰見一名(較)年輕的女子在跳cha-cha。穿著thong platform去這樣發癲，真的很累。
對不起，身旁那個呈sugar daddy狀之物，我不認識。我只十分喜歡抱著我的gal toy在震耳欲聾的Gimme下，一起發晒姣在牆邊咬著雪卡slide down。

Halo是gal toy的家。但我愛烏及屋，這個retro天堂，其實較像我這80後的一杯茶。
我摸不著頭腦，問bouncer：「What is this for?」
他作了個睡狀。可是那麼大的一張床，床單被鋪枕頭都井井有條的陳列著。真的可以睡嗎?
不知道香港可會有一家BED呢?

我有理由相信，我有不少我不知道不認識的人一直在看。無他的，好奇心皆人之常情。亦都感謝各好友守候。在我遠去了大半年之後，回來原來大家都仍在。真好。

好奇者，可能想看看我end up有一天會怎樣死。我這個人性格太強，又太愛「齌flirt唔上床」(quoted from my baby)，自然有太多人會不高興。

不過或者看看剩下的半杯水。我那麼多的牢騷，都只不過是我生命的一部份。亦可能有些人，覺得看著另一個人成長，很有趣。

我在過去的九個月裡，過得很迷惘。因為我很想找到自己喜歡的東西，卻也找不到。其實，很多人可能窮一輩子都找不到，這一趟，我想我真的很幸運。祈望這可不是又一個premature joculation。

如果是真正自己想要的東西，根本沒理由去讓你去質疑，究竟是什麼一回事，究竟我在幹什麼。就算在ground 0開始，也不要緊。因為你會相信，有一天你終會在第100層。就算一天要掉下來，也都天真無悔的想：「我倒有付出過。」

在ground 001，會有會心微笑之時。那個「sincerely, YOU」，令我沒有想到被罵時都可以這樣開心。就算24/7的去守侯EMAIL，也一樣快樂。

我要打不死!!!

not going fast nuff?

cheryl101
What are you doing now? - typing on my 15.4″ DELL laptop, unplugged
What do you wear now? - my fav turquoise tunic (w/ purple swallows) and a gray PRL jacket, also bra and thong
Sitting or lying down? - trying to sustain from completely sliding down while leaning against my pillows
What’s your best sleepwear? - I need a pantie. Basically that’s all I need; but I usually wear a tanktop/babydoll.
Favorite thing to do? - go virtual, dance, brat, long comas, draw, write, read, and eat (unfortunately, “fuck” isn’t on the list)
Favorite food? - sweets: creme brulee, fudge cakes, souffle, cookies and brownies, ice cream, pinkberry or just regular yogurt with fruits, chocolates, caramel, chocolate apple (!!!), marshmallows, chocolate fondue, vanilla bean cheescake…hmmm
Pets? - defly defly. Fluffiness rules.
Drink? - occasionally. I don’t drink to torture.
Smoke? - only when someone smokes or I get infuriated
Last music? - was it CAKE on my way home?
Favorite drink? - green apple/ginger martini, or sweet wines
Favorite dish? - over-cooked fish fillets, veggie in general: broccoli, asparagus, celery, sprouts, garlic, onion, potatoes, radishes, tomatoes, eggplant, zucchini, cilantro/parsley, olives… cheese and tomato salad, bruschetta on smoked salmon bakery, fettuccine alfredo, onion rings, hot pot, chili and spice, shells, crabs and shrimps, chicken soup, DUMPLINGS!! (esp crab powder xiao long bao), noodles (i don’t like rice that much), chicken quesadilla, cheeros!, guacamole+nachos…yum!!
Recreation? - dancing still. jazz, ballet, theater, modern, Chinese… anything that’s emotionally stimulating.
Camera - Nikon D40: it’s really lame but i managed to play along, oh well.
Kids? - that I would consider it as a murder.
TV? - very occasionally
Magazines? - I skim though ‘em. Just for the sake to “absorb” relevant information.
Radio? - do it online when I have to.
Musical Instruments? - only if you would consider recorder as an instrument.
RTW? - comfy, stlyish and cheap. H&M = <3, also Zara, American Apparel, UrbanOutfitters, American Eagle, Aeropostale, and thrifts
What you gonna do after done w/ this? - get a shower and go back to work again =(
Anything? - I’m so drained and tired, but HAPPY =)

I wait in the same spot, brain like a parking lot
You’re the traffic in my head
You’re the reason that I’m wrecked
I pray for it to stop like rain on the sidewalk
Traffic in my head, you’re the traffic in my head
There’s just too much to forget

Marie Digby - Traffic (Original Song)

我唔知自己想點。
睇嚟會好快用晒D貨。

我從來都唔修甲，雖然成日好想做manicure/pedicure成套加個gel french。之但係，我個人咁求其嗱渣，做完又係PK整花晒。係有時發姣揸吓支OPI粉藍色指甲油，唔洗錢又幾好用嘅。唔係人人都可以揸粉藍色㗎。

有男士以為我修甲：「唔好整爛D指甲修得咁靚!」，sorry我只係冇剪，唔好咁天真。我經常有班上時都會處於一個「指甲唔得閒剪屎又唔得閒痾」之狀態。

朋友用La Mer hand cream，而我就只不過係當日冬天番工路上發覺「唔得，好L乾」，去seven買咗支Pears，盛惠11蚊。又ok喎。不過夏天唔洗揸啦。

好彩而家都未去到果個狀態。所以啱啱又自己修咗頭髮染番黑d好7嘅highlight。

但面部好慘。我冇錢refill (其實之前有靚嘢用都係因為工作時拿到free sample…)，所以而家又好pathetic地揸花士令當night cream。其實又ok吖，揸Pythotherm咪又係咁油淋淋。

Mask都好耐冇敷。敷都係敷aspirin+honey mask，幾抵，買一排30蚊十世都用唔完。

化妝品就唔好提，我丟咗支foundation。唔可以因為生鬚而揸咁多粉，越揸越多。其他的，NARS又真係好好用呀，仲有Clinique、Bobbi Brown都係我至愛。但係都係唔係自己買。其實化妝，咪又係來來去去果幾隻色….

仲有你唔好問我幾耐剃一次毛。冬天唔洗見人梗係由得去自由生長啦。而家熱辣辣，真係麻煩… 出門口前check吓咩情況囉… 有咪pluck咗佢囉。最煩手毛腳毛都要剃。如果去游水，仲要做個wax添…. 我修眉都係用個razor剃咗d毛算，邊有咁多時間遂條猛?

PAP overdue，洗牙 overdue，頭髮好crap又冇錢剪。你以為我成日好鍾意紮起個頭，有朵花咁好cute呀? 係個頭太crap吹都唔吹去訓，訓醒又唔想搞先係咁。唔係點可以半個鐘出門口?

有時諗，如果可以好似呀Janice Man AngelaBaby佢哋咁卷晒髮嘩係唔係真係會好索??

係呀，果個係呀女神個貼紙。我以為可以點綴吓部機，點知都唔靚。搣唔甩個底，咪咩囉，畫D嘢囉。

Maintainance… 真係件好那煩嘅事。飲多幾杯detox算喇都係。

I wonder, after going offline for 4 hours I am getting zero emails from my bosses. Paranoia strikes me with this thought that our unreliable email server is down. But gmail isn’t, or, is it?

So pathetically intoxicated…. by work, by SPELL.

“…and right now, I got you, for a moment that I know I’ve got you, ’cause your lips don’t move… something’s happening, ’cause your eyes tell me the truth — I’ve put a spell over you”

Eerie and emo… hmmm, I’m loving it =]

Work begins again: finishing line = 1.30am, yo.

女人是一種不太想用腦的動物。天性如此。

有些女人從來都沒有用過腦。小時家中有什麼事都有父母去解決，長大畢業後就結了婚生了小孩，閒來賺錢買花戴，可是又有野心，想去學人創業又不知從何開始。創了業亦都沒有那個腦力去打理自己業務，所以動不動就覺得大禍臨頭，出動老公去幫她解決。可是，無事卻夏迎春，老公幫忙多了又不想老公插手，亦同時以CEO(!)自居，業務與老公全無關係。就連簡簡單單用個blackberry可省卻許多時間做事也不屑去學習選用，又何以做個CEO?

Power woman是另一種生物，因為她們已活像個男人，亦都不太需要男人之協助。與power woman不同，一般女人都有著這個份惰性：有些則像以上例子頗為乞人憎的裝蒜，有些則安份守己的去做個庸懶平凡的女人。

我知道我亦便就是同一類型的乞人憎女人。因為每當我想起要上班及一些些的恐懼，我都不期然的去想：「如果有人養就好喇。」可是又不心甘命低的去做個別人背後的女人。有腦力卻不想去用腦，付出最少得到最多便好。奈何女人，至少於我們文化當中，便就是有了這個可以讓我們「退而求其次」之選擇。

早起的鳥兒有蟲吃。越多付出的、多用腦的，都總有一定回報。一些賣相顯赫的女士卻可以逃過這些基本的起步點，去賺到比別人多的。可是，臭皮囊終會年老色衰，賣相再多好不好抓緊已比別人高一等之台階，終被後浪所推，一沉百踩。那，你還是想要用腦不用腦?

*something to share… I have been using these artist themes for quite some time and I LOVED IT! I am a big fan of google page and this just polishes the whole tool up. Completely romantic and awesome!!